I did it! After reading through all your comments and e-mails and listening to my gut, I called to set up my RE consultation. I called kind of late and didn't get through to the nurse, but I left my information and I'm hoping to hear back (or call again) tomorrow. I'm shooting for an appointment date in late August or early September, right around the time I estimate cycle #7 post-miscarriage will begin.
After I made the decision to set the appointment up, I began to second guess myself. What if I'm moving too fast? What if I'm not giving us enough time to get this done on our own? Four months isn't that long to try-- we got our BFP in cycle 7 last time. Maybe we just take a little longer than most people. But then again, Taking Charge of Your Fertility recommends seeking help after four cycles of timed sex that don't succeed.
I still have this fear that I'm making problems up where none exist, and that by worrying over when we'll get pregnant I'm preventing us from conceiving. I think when I schedule the appointment I'll feel a little more secure. And of course I hope that we get pregnant before the appointment and have to cancel. That would be the best outcome! But with only two cycles left to try, I need to be prepared for what comes next.
With all I'm doing this summer-- learning German, renovating our closets, traveling to Scandinavia, writing an article to submit to a journal and a paper for my conference, studying for my orals and working on several seminar papers--it will be August before I know it. And then this show will really start.
I'm back, and it's hopefully not a once-off!!
8 months ago