I got confirmation today that I am indeed a smarty-smarty, because my haphazardly chosen nickname for Dr. Wonderful is turning out to be so, so apt. She is really wonderful. I have never felt such relief and comfort after having radioactive dye injected into my nether regions.
So first of all, the results of the HSG were all clear: no obstructions in uterus, tubes flowing freely, everything where it should be and looking good. I was SUPER nervous for the procedure, but Dr. Wonderful talked me through it, making sure I knew what was going to happen at each step, making little jokes to calm me down, and even switching to a smaller catheter when I seemed to be having a lot of discomfort from the original one. She was so great.
Then Lawyer Guy and I headed back across the street to the clinic to monitor my response to the Clomid and to talk about the results of last week's SA (because Dr. W called me, LG never got a chance to speak with her about them). My follies are all still really small, so Dr. W said to come back on Friday to check them out again. We may need to bump up an additional round of Clomid at that point if they still haven't grown much, but she's hopeful she'll be able to do the trigger then and schedule the IUI for the weekend. I hope it can work out that way!
Then before we all left, Lawyer Guy and I had a chance to ask her a bunch of questions. She said she's not terribly worried about his morphology results-- she thinks it's the least important factor in the SA and that while it could be contributing to the delay in our conceiving, finding it wasn't an "a-ha" moment. Then she actually said that she doesn't think we're technically infertile! She thinks the timing maybe hasn't been quite right yet, maybe there was a little mucus in the tubes that has now been washed out, maybe some little thing here or little thing there hasn't been matching up and that's why we've been having such trouble. She also speculated-- while cautioning us that less invasive methods will probably work but require a certain amount of patience-- that she thinks she will be able to help us get pregnant within the next six months!
As much as I am super wary of letting myself think that optimistically, it was such a relief to hear her speak with confidence. After spinning these doomsday scenarios in my mind of IVF with ICSI and months and months of saving and draining our accounts and spending years on this, six months sounds like a weekend! I have to laugh a little at how dire I once thought waiting six months to get pregnant would be, while now it sounds like no time at all.
I feel much better today than I have in months. I could be doing an IUI very soon. And while this cycle might not pan out, that's okay. We've survived worse and we can survive that. One of these days something is going to go right for us, and for the first time in forever I don't feel like I'm the one who has to make it happen.
I'm back, and it's hopefully not a once-off!!
4 months ago