It's amazing how fast my mood can turn around.
This morning I was feeling pretty good. I'm only on CD 12, but I'm already getting high readings on the CBEFM and am starting to suspect I might ovulate before day 20. Exciting! Thrilling!
I've been drinking my raspberry leaf tea and I haven't had any spotting yet. Wonderful! Optimistic!
I had a good session at therapy, a great meeting with my adviser, and a Junior League meeting tonight. Productive! Accomplished!
And then I signed on to Facebook when I got home to see that a former fellow volunteer was announcing her pregnancy with a 20-week ultrasound. I've been on the verge of tears for the last hour. I'm jealous as hell, and it's completely unfair of me to be so. This girl is a good six years older than me, had to put off having kids for years because of MS, and had a miscarriage about two months after I did.
I was afraid to call my high school friend on her birthday today because I know she and her husband started TTC in January, and I'm dreading their inevitable announcement.
My cousin had a baby yesterday, and I can't even stand to look at the pictures.
I hate my jealousy and sadness, and I wish I could make it go away.
But more than that, I just want to be pregnant again.