I'm back to reality after a nice weekend away at my father-in-law and his wife's beach house. This is the first 4th of July we've spent out there--it was always claimed in the past by brother-in-law and sister-in-law before we had a chance to go. But now they don't want to travel while the new baby isn't sleeping through the night, so we get all the weekends. Ha ha! Suck on that, breeders!
I've struggled with blogging a bit this past week. I'm really tired of the blog devolving into SymptomWatch! during every two week wait. It just feeds my intense focus on my imaginary signs and my intense sadness when AF comes at the end of it. This month, I've taken a vow of silence: I will not post about any symptoms nor will I google any combination of "xdpo" and "tiredness"/"sore boobs"/ "excessive farting"/"scratchy throat"/"night terrors"/"thumbnail fungus" / etc.
Though, as a bone to those of you who have expressed interest or optimism for this cycle, I just want to put this out there: I don't think this is the month. I wish it were, and I'll obviously convince myself it is at some points in the next few days, and you can certainly never know until AF shows, but still. I'm thinking no.
'Sokay, though. I've got German homework to do. A Mets game to check out with Lawyer Guy tonight. A puppy to walk. The Bachelorette to watch. Vampire Weekend tickets to buy. Surely that's enough to sustain a blog for a week, right?
I'm back, and it's hopefully not a once-off!!
7 years ago
It sounds like you had a great weekend and a beach house?? Fabulous!
ReplyDeleteBOOOO to the Mets. I'm a Phillies fan. :)
I'm keeping everything crossed for you.
I, personally, love the symptom watch. One of my main hobbies has been to stalk the blogs of pregnant infertiles, and to look at what they wrote in their last few entries before they discovered they were pregnant. I always love it when they express hopelessness, but I hate when they don't list their symptoms. So, for the sake of data, you should be sure to report them! :)
ReplyDeleteOr not-- we are, after all, interested in the other things you are involved in on a daily basis too! Just not as PASSIONATELY interested as we are in your CM, for instance. Hey, you signed up to hang out with bunch of obsessive freaks, what can I say?
I think symptom watch might be one of those things that makes us a bit shamefaced in retrospect. (You know, why was I recording all that trivial stuff when it turned out to be nothing?) But it also reflects a person's state of mind during a hard period of every month, and we care about your state of mind. So if you find you can't resist, we'll just pretend this vow never happened.
ReplyDeleteSounds like a pretty good week (though, I'm still holding out hope...as you say, it's not over until it's over). And, yeah, I occasionally feel like I write about the same monthly patterns: despair, hope (and good timing), hopeful waiting alongside descriptions of (often phantom) symptoms, then a bit more despair. A bit deja-vu-ish sometimes:)
ReplyDelete*insert evil laugh here* Both cycles I got my BFP were cycles I was pretty sure weren't it. The only two cycles I was like "no...not gonna happen." I hope it works the same with you - sue me for holding out hope! ;)
ReplyDeleteBoy, do I relate to your symptom watches, though...
ReplyDeleteSounds like you have some good times comin' up! Awesome.
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ReplyDeleteWell the beach house sounds fab!! Glad you had a great weekend! And I totally support your vow, but I am holding out hope for you missy...you just never know! But sounds you have lots of good stuff coming up, so yay for that!!
ReplyDeleteI am, as you know, a total sucker for the symptoms posts. (Perhaps partly b/c I never get any!) So you will never disappoint me if you should decide to break your vow of silence. (I also continue to feel like your CD16 ovulation could mean very, very good things for you.)
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you had an awesome weekend at the beach! And that's a great list of distractions to get you through the end of the wait. Hang in there, Sloper.
It sounds like you had a really great weekend. I, of course, would love to hear about your symptoms if you choose to write about them. But I can understand if you don't want to and I'll read about whatever you choose to write about in the meantime. :)
ReplyDeleteOh, and go Phillies!
sounds like you had a nice weekend!! the only perk (if you will) of not ovulating, is not having to endure a 2ww every month. i don't know how you girls do it, but i'm feeling super hopeful that your turn is coming up :o)
ReplyDeleteFor myself, I'm tired about SymptomWatch! too. But I love reading others', so yeah, if you break that vow, no problem. Fingers crossed anyway!
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