A blog about babies: the babies I lost, the babies I never had, the baby who made me a Mama.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Three years ago, I married Lawyer Guy in the 19th-century chapel at my old high school. It was a hot day, but the old stone kept us cool in our formal clothes, even without air-conditioning. We stood under a chuppah of white lace knit by my best friend, Doctor Lady, in front of a deacon and a rabbi and promised to be always faithful to each other in words spoken by countless other brides and grooms in countless other weddings.
Our home is filled with reminders of that day-- gifts and photos, the framed invitation, and that very same square of white lace folded at the end of our bed. I treasure remembering how happy we both were, how much love we felt (from each other and from all of our guests), how months of planning became one beautiful day.
I didn't know then that three years later we would be facing these challenges or grieving these losses. But I could have predicted that Lawyer Guy and I would find a way to work through them. I could have predicted that--despite our differences and occasional arguments--we would each become the rock for the other, our mutual support and strength and stability.
Three years ago, I made the best decision of my life, and every day I'm rewarded for it.
We left the cocktail bars and highrises of Manhattan for the playgroups and farmers markets of Brooklyn, eager to become just another couple of stroller nazis clogging the sidewalk. Two years and a lost pregnancy later, we finally reached paradise with the birth of our little boy Smudgie. Now, after a surprise pregnancy and yet another loss, we're stepping back onto the TTC road, but refusing to let it carry us back to purgatory again.
11/16/13 - Baby Girl Nu-Nu born healthy and two weeks early. Such a happy family. 5/20/13 - NT scan looks good...time to move to a new blog 3/25/13 - BFP (#4) 11/30/12- D&C 11/27/12 - missed m/c at 1st OB appt, 8 week embryo with Triploidy 11/19/12 - 7 week embryo with hb of 130 ("graduate" from gyn) 10/31/12 - Surprise BFP (#3) 8/12 - First Postpartum Period
10/4/11 -- Smudgie's birthday! Welcome, sweet little boy!