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Friday, February 4, 2011

Another Hurdle; or, One

Things are still looking okay. We spotted one gestational sac in the ute, measuring appropriately and right where it belongs. I had convinced myself that I would have and that I wanted twins, but I'll be quite thrilled to be lucky enough to bring home a healthy singleton, no question. No disappointment here, at all. Nothing but relief.

Dr. W said that everything looks good so far, but that it's still early and we just have to wait. Lawyer Guy insisted that I ask her about my boob size/pain concerns and cramping fears, and she responded that I should pay no attention to any of that because "it means nothing." The most important thing is to rest and relax and try to distract myself. There's nothing we can do right now (as I well know) but wait, so I might as well make the waiting as tolerable as possible.

There's also nothing I can do about my cough, though Lawyer Guy asked if it was okay for me to take some old prescription cough syrup with codeine he has lying around. (Dr. W and I looked at him like he had two heads. Um, narcotics are not really on the list of approved medications during pregnancy, sweetie). I might get a humidifier for our bedroom today, because the dry air hurts my throat with every breath.

Our next appointment is in a week. These upcoming two appointments (and these upcoming two weeks) are going to be especially hard, because starting around 6 weeks is where things began to go pear-shaped last time. But I can't go on torturing myself like this. It's not good for me or for Lawyer Guy or for the baby. I've got to do my best to relax and follow my good friend Egg's lead:

Zen zen zen zen zen.

23 comments:

  1. That' terrific news! Trust me, one healthy baby is all you want. The likelihood of complications with twins is much larger. So in a week, you'll be hearing a heartbeat and things, I hope, will continue just as smoothly until you finally hold your baby in your arms. Sending you lots of Zen thoughts.

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  2. Great news Sloper!! Hang in there. ((HUGS))

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  3. Glad to hear the good news so far. Keep up the zen.

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  4. Wonderful news! I was a teeny bit disappointed when my first ultrasound revealed just one too. But like you said, bringing home one healthy baby will be thrilling enough. One day at a time. I like the zen.

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  5. OVER THE MOON FOR YOU!!! I can't express how happy I am for you, Sloper!! This is SUCH wonderful, wonderful news today!! It brings me such hope :).

    And, you know, I felt like you, too, about twinsies--wouldn't it just be easier to get it over with? But really, who doesn't want twinsies? It's like an infertile's dream come true. But I, too, am OK with just one--otherwise we wouldn't have transferred our single embabe on Sunday :). One is all I need, too, at this point. Just one.

    Again, ecstatic about your news but understand your anxiety. Maybe dig into writing again to keep your mind off the next u/s?

    xoxoxoxo

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  6. Awesome news! So glad to hear it! Wishing you a very zen weekend too... :)

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  7. Yep, this is an AWESOME milestone, sweet little Slopie!!

    All is well. Breathe in, breathe out. Zen zen zen zen. xo

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  8. What fantastic news and what a great hurdle to pass!

    I know how hellish the waiting is between appointments. Try as best you can to distract yourself. (((Hugs)))

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  9. As far as your cough, when I had a really bad case of bronchitis/pneumonia last year, I made a mixture of slightly heated honey and just a little bit of cinnamon and it helped some. The honey coats the throat and the cinnamon.... does something. I can't really remember. But those are both things I would think wouldn't hurt the baby.

    Congratulations!

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  10. I love that you're disappointed about twins! :) That's a good thing to be disappointed about! Yay! for a sac measuring correctly. I can't wait for heartbeat news next week....

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  11. Great news, this hurdle cleared! Not ectopic, YAY, YAY, YAY!! And everything looks on track.

    And now, more waiting...

    This part of the wait was the hardest for me too..the wait to see the heartbeat. I think your doc said it best: take it easy, keep yourself busy, distracted, and as zen as possible.

    Can't wait to hear more good news next week!

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  12. Yes, unfortuntely you're in no man's land right now . . . nothing to do, and nothing to help except vain attempts to distract thyself.

    I had constant pulling and stretching feelings during the Peanut pregnancy, combined with good ol' bleeding for weeks during 5/6/7 weeks, which was oh so much fun (not). The pulling and stretching are normal, but they so mimic feelings of cramps and are haunting and scary reminders of prior m/c's, dammit.

    My boobs didn't actually get any larger until something like week 20-ish. I never had any morning sickness, so don't buy into the absence of morning sickness meaning anything, got that?!

    Feel free to come and worry aloud on your blog everytime you feel like it. Worrying about it won't hurt the baby, and it might make you feel better to acknowledge it for a few minutes, and then move along. Do you remember my constant fretting up through week 12?! I have 5 u/s between weeks 5.5 - 12, LOL, and each time I was convinced there'd be no baby.

    Great news today, try and eek out a small celebration if you can :o)

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  13. Yay!!! Such great news.

    I recommend gargling warm salt water for your cough. It's kind of gross, but it does seem to help. I'd snort it, too, if I were you. :)

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  14. Glad to hear things went well. I hope you feel better soon. Praying for a sticky bean, for you to get well soon and for you to have peace of mind about this pregnancy!

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  15. How could I have missed this?! Amazing news, Sloper! I'm so very hopeful for you.

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  16. :) yay. so glad that things are going well. I know that there is a ways to go, but you do have celebrate every step in the right direction. I hope you feel better soon. Keep us posted...

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  17. A sac! Right on! Because, really, Sloper, if you'd seen arms and legs and a face, you'd have been a little freaked-out, right? ;) Keep on keepin' on with that Zen goodness; Egg's definitely got the right idea. xoxo

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  18. such. great. news. you sound so cautiously happy which is so understandable. good luck finding some good distractions. like they say, just take it one day at a time, and today was an awesome day.

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  19. Wonderful news! I know the wait between ultrasounds is really hard, but you're doing great. Keep the zen vibes flowing my friend!

    And yes, Dr. Wonderful is SO right. My boobs were on and off sore and it totally freaked me out. Obviously it doesn't mean anything!

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  20. I'm so glad you got good news! I hope it keeps coming.

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  21. Yay! I was looking forward to your update after being computer-free this weekend. I'm so glad things are okay in there.

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  22. Stick baby! So happy for you and LG.

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