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Wednesday, November 3, 2010

This and That; or, Wishes and Horses

Not much to say tonight. I made a wish on a star while out walking the dog--I don't see so many of them in the city, so I felt I had to seize my chances. I revised the wish about three times just to make sure it was conveyed without any ambiguity. We can't be too careful about these things.

There's a lot on my mind. I'm wondering when we'll do the IUI. I'm wondering about December and whether we should go forward with treatments that month or not. I'm reeling a bit from a badly timed pregnancy announcement last week that I'm not quite sure what to do about and don't have the energy to blog about yet. I'm trying to hold Lawyer Guy up while he tackles some doctor's appointments he's dreading. I'm trying to get 80 papers graded. I'm trying to prepare a faux-Thanksgiving feast for this weekend. I'm trying to enjoy my life as it is right now.

It never holds for long, but I seem to have reached some kind of stasis. I take it where I can find it.

And with that, I'm off to bed.


  1. It's a lot to handle, but you're doing it beautifully & with such grace.

    Love you, love you, love you.

  2. Hoping that your wish comes true this month. Thank you so much for your kind words on my blog, I am looking forward to following along with you (and only live a bridge ride away from you).

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  4. Stasis is good and, sometimes, the most we can hope for. But I'm hoping that this lucky star brings you some very, very good news. As for the rest, all you can do - all any of us can do - is just take it one thing at a time. (So easy to say, so hard to do, I know).

  5. Your wishing experience reminds me of this comic:


    (read the caption as well, it's pretty funny).

    I think you should plow ahead with treatments, wedding be damned. This is the most important thing right now, to get out of this awful situation, and I don't think that it is worth putting off for anything. If you do get pregnant, you aren't going to be THAT disappointed about the wedding, all things considered. I mean, it's 15 minutes of pre-rehearsed blathering!! And your sister might be able to change the date or do a second reception to which you can come. I know it would suck to miss the wedding, but in reality, it is a sacrifice that any of us would gladly make if you get a sticky baby out of it. Then if that cycle doesn't work, you will be able to be more calm about the outcome... Go for it, sloper!!!

    And I don't envy you those papers.... ugh!

  6. You're too cute, and I'm sure you're conveyed the message to the star just perfectly!! And now you have not only a star but a rainbow on your side, that has to be good! Thinking of you, and the faux thanksgiving sounds fun, you'll have to tell us everything you're making!

  7. I'll make another wish for you. I'm sorry you're having such a rough time lately. Hang in there.