15 weeks after my D&C, 8 weeks after I began weekly phone calls to two separate doctors' offices, 5 weeks after I first cried on the phone, 4 weeks after I learned I was never given the release form I needed to sign, 3 weeks after I faxed the release form in, 1 week after screaming at my doctor's receptionist over the phone...
I finally got the lab results from the genetic testing on the m&m.
My doctor said this is good news, that we don't need to worry about karyotyping and that future pregnancies are highly likely to be healthy.
But now I don't know why this baby didn't make it. It's much, much harder to accept this miscarriage as "not meant to be" when the baby likely would have been healthy and normal and fine if he or she had progressed.
Yes, he or she. We asked to not be told the sex.
My dad says this will just be one of life's mysteries for me. Holding a healthy, living, cuddly baby of my own, I think I'll be able to accept the mysteries of life better than I do right now.
I'm back, and it's hopefully not a once-off!!
4 weeks ago