A blog about babies: the babies I lost, the babies I never had, the baby who made me a Mama.

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Hello, Hello

I've been very quiet the last few months. I've been very tired, as well. And very anxious. But not unhappy.

I bailed on a half-marathon I was scheduled to run in April. I turned in a draft of my first dissertation chapter to my advisor. I slept. A lot.

Because happily, strangely, amazingly, I'm pregnant again. 13 weeks and all seems well. With an active little squirt who's already refusing to play by anyone else's rules, making the ultrasound tech work for those nasal bone shots at our nuchal scan.

We're both piling on the pounds (or ounces). I'm finally out of the eat-everything-then-puke-it-up stage. I feel hopeful sometimes and afraid others, but I'm ready to start revealing this secret without worrying (too much) that saying the words will doom them to not come true.

I'm due the day after Thanksgiving. Which is also the day before I had my d&c last year. Which is all rather fitting.

So I'm saying hello to all of you and hello to the little person we hope will join our family this fall. And also goodbye. Sort of. For now.

I have another space in the works that I'm not quite ready to invite everyone into yet. But I think it better fits my spirit these days, as someone trying to do a million things in a crazy city, the most important of which is raise my little family.

I'll always keep this space too, as the record of what we went through in our search for our family and a way to reach out to anyone facing those same struggles today. And maybe as a safety net, just in case.

But it's time to move on. To someplace new and full of possibilities, where I hope you'll join me soon.

Hello. Goodbye. Thank you.

17 comments:

  1. Yay. Lovely to hear things are doing well with you- I'd incredibly busy. Looking forward to your new space.

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  2. Congratulations!! I'm so happy for you, Sloper! And it truly sounds like you've got a sticky baby in there!

    Please let us know when you've got a new space set up. I've missed you these months but am so glad for the reason for your absence. :D

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  3. Oh, I can feel the giddiness and glowing coming straight from the words on this page! I'm so incredibly happy for you, and excited that our babies are due a week apart! How's that for a fitting finale to our IF journeys together? But this week-apart business also means that I am anxiously awaiting your opening up your new (blog) space! Given the opportunity, I hope to share the next leg of this journey with you. And names! We must discuss names! :)

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  4. Congratuations!! I would love to continue to follow along; I miss your thoughtfulness and your writing - you're so very good.

    Very happy for you, Sloper!

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  5. You already know I'm elated for you and LG and Smudgie :). But I am sad you're leaving this blog. Please keep me posted on where you end up next b/c your blog posts are always so, so beautiful.

    Good luck and I cannot wait to hear more about this little one!

    xoxo

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  6. I am so, so happy for you! Just thrilled to read this news. I've been wondering how you were doing these days, and it's wonderful to hear that you are pregnant and "not unhappy."

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  7. This is awesome news, Sloper. I am soooo sooo happy for you guys!

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  8. Congrats! Glad you're back(ish)...

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  9. I'll follow you anywhere, love... Biggest congrats! xoxo.

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  10. Congratulations! Wishing you a happy healthy baby#2!

    I'd love to follow your next chapter in your new space.

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  12. Congrats! This is great news for you. And also congrats on that first chapter, also huge news. (I've finally started my proposal, which will be a big chunk of the first chapter and hope to propose in September) Would love to follow you to the new space when you are ready to share.

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  13. I am SO SO happy for you sloper!!!! I'll be 8w tomorrow with our #2 and am praying for a sticky baby as well. Isn't it crazy to see how much has changed for us over the years? Congrats!!!

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  14. omg! congratulations! so thrilled to hear this news!

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  15. Such awesome news!!! I hope to follow along to your new space!!

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  16. I'm sorry I was slow to get to commenting here, but I am so happy for you and looking forward (I hope!) to joining you in your new space when you're ready. Congrats, friend :)

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  17. Congrats Sloper!!! Best of luck in the coming weeks/months and keep us posted on the next space.

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