A blog about babies: the babies I lost, the babies I never had, the baby who made me a Mama.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
It Had to Be You; or, the Pleasures of Marriage
Things have been rough the last few days. I'm going to get my period any day now and lose whatever faint hope I had for this cycle. The stress in the bedroom has not improved.
But...yesterday marked two years since my wedding, a day that makes me so happy every time I think about it I can't help but smile. Despite the difficulties and frustrations right now, I am so grateful to be with my husband, can't imagine anyone more perfect for me. He's my partner and my best friend and the one man in the world with whom I want to have a family.
I know our time will come, and until then I'll try to take comfort in how good we have it.
We left the cocktail bars and highrises of Manhattan for the playgroups and farmers markets of Brooklyn, eager to become just another couple of stroller nazis clogging the sidewalk. Two years and a lost pregnancy later, we finally reached paradise with the birth of our little boy Smudgie. Now, after a surprise pregnancy and yet another loss, we're stepping back onto the TTC road, but refusing to let it carry us back to purgatory again.
11/16/13 - Baby Girl Nu-Nu born healthy and two weeks early. Such a happy family. 5/20/13 - NT scan looks good...time to move to a new blog 3/25/13 - BFP (#4) 11/30/12- D&C 11/27/12 - missed m/c at 1st OB appt, 8 week embryo with Triploidy 11/19/12 - 7 week embryo with hb of 130 ("graduate" from gyn) 10/31/12 - Surprise BFP (#3) 8/12 - First Postpartum Period
10/4/11 -- Smudgie's birthday! Welcome, sweet little boy!